Not much news, really...

... but I thought people might like an update.
I'm not sure if the antidepressants are having much effect yet. When I started them I had a few days of assorted unpleasant side effects - severe nausea on the Saturday, panic attacks and claustrophobia on the Sunday, and extreme jitteriness for the first half of the week. Fortunately, that's all gone now. I don't feel noticeably better, although I've been finding that I have more energy in the evenings. I'm going back to see the doctor on Monday, for him to check how I'm doing.

As far as house-hunting goes, we've applied for two nice houses so far, and been turned down for both of them. We've put in for another one, but we're not holding our breath.
We think that, when we do get accepted for one, we'll be very busy with cleaning and decorating the new place. So, considering that, we've been doing a lot of packing this week - obviously not things likie clothes, toiletries and kitchen stuff, but we've got most of our videos, DVDs, CDs, board games and comics boxed, as well as my jewellery-making supplies and a lot of ornaments.
The trouble is, the more packing we do, the less this place feels like home and the more weird I feel about it.

I'll let you know if we hear any more about a house.

Something that made me smile

Whilst wandering aimlessly through YouTube, I came across this video. It made me smile, and I really needed that today. I thought I'd share it with you.



(Green Day/Oasis/Travis/Aerosmith/Eminem)

Brain update

Well, I finally went to see the doctor today. I was really worried that I wouldn't be able to explain just how bad I've been feeling. As it was, I got one sentence out and burst into tears.
My doctor was really nice and helpful. He gave me a little questionnaire to fill out, and then added up my scores - I have high levels of anxiety and depression (I kinda figured that out already...). Since the antidepressant I took a few years ago worked very well, we decided that I'll go back on that. It'll take at least a couple of weeks for me to start feeling any benefits, and I'm to go back to see him then to check how it's doing. I'm also to go back immediately if I have any thoughts about harming myself.
I have a pile of printouts to read as well, mostly about techniques to cope with the depression and to help calm the anxiety.
I start taking the pills tonight - possible side effects for the first few days include sleeping problems, headaches, nausea and anxiety, but I have all those already, so I shouldn't think I'll notice any additional effects.

I just want my brain working again.